IF ONLY SHE WAS ALIVE...

Today is August 20, 2209. It's been 4 years and 2 months since my mother's very untimely death and it is less than 24 hours before what would be her 58th birthday. Not a day passes that I don't wonder what really happened to her in her final hours or what thoughts were streaming through her wary mind. She was always a torn woman; caught between good and evil, right and wrong, positive and negative.

As an apple doesn't fall far from its tree, I find myself in the same predicament daily. Some people have a way of avoiding tragedy and not questioning it while I, on the other hand, will seek it out just to investigate it and experience both sides.

Strangely enough, since I found GOD, am at peace with her passing. I know she is in heaven and that the Lord had a plan for her the whole time. Who am I to ever doubt our creator? What normally is an overwhelmingly sad time, is now somewhat manageable. I know she is not of this physical planet full of pain and suffering, struggle and turmoil, or temptation and idols. She is right where we all end up...as I believe it.

It was so bittersweet....her birthday. At least that's been the case since her passing. See, my family, God bless them, decided to bury her on her birthday. I had found that to be, well, horrible. But since my personal relationship with Christ has been established I realize that her going back to dust on that date is nothing short of life's circle poetically punctuated. If you ever knew Aline Marie, you'd expect nothing less.

I love you mom....Happy Birthday and Happy re-birthday!